I just remembered, I dreamt about this man.

Apart from my obsession, I think its cos I was watching The Lookout before I drifted off. Funny cos that’s how my dream went - the first 3 minutes of the film.

Oh Joe, you gorgeous man.

I loved @RealAudreyKitch ‘s blog’s background image, I just had to copy her!

Screenshot of Audrey Kitching’s Blog

Flowers = ♥ .Now if only there are skulls. Waitaminute. I can do that! *rubs hands together*

I never thought I was the unforgiving type. I knew I could learn how to forget a person and all the bad things he/she did to me years ago. I mean, I’m best friends with some of the people who bullied me in sixth grade. Oh, sixth grade. It was so bad that my Mom had to go to our adviser’s office to report it. She even barged in our lunch area to scream at my classmates. Seriously. They locked me up in the bathroom, and would have the entire class against me, and gave me really mean nicknames.

Its funny, thinking about it now. How silly of me to make a big deal out of things like that. It seems petty. I’d let my 23 year-old self talk to that 10-year old girl crying in the bathroom - “Its not worth it. Just let it go, its gonna pass.”

In college, I ended up with one friend who also managed to turn most of my female classmates against me. In the end, I thought she could be trusted. I thought she was the only one I had. When in fact, she manipulated almost everyone to make it look that way. I later found out she had been stealing money from me, and some make-up too.

She would come apologize to me. I forgave her once but she started ruining my life again by making up stories of me and this guy friend of ours, and that’s when I knew I had enough.

When I think about these things, these painful situations I’ve been in, it doesn’t hurt me anymore as much as it did. I’m not as bitter as I was.

But there is one particular person I can’t let slide.

You see, the thing about these people, the ones on the other end of the picture, they have all these issues that, if they explain themselves, might probably let their faults be justified.

Exhibit A. “I did this because my Dad cheated on my Mom. Therefore all men are like that, so why can’t I screw around?”

Exhibit B. “I did this because my boyfriend cheated on me with my friend. So I’m going to seduce my friend’s boyfriend too cos if they can do it, I can too!”

If I take my issues seriously I would probably end up doing worse things than these kids. I’m not saying I’m a role model or Wonderwoman for that matter (but I’d just loooove to be in her costume! Seriously, its teh sexx!) but if everyone used their own issues against the world… then oooh baby, baby it’s a Wild World!

(See. That’s the thing about starting a serious blog entry and taking a break for about an hour before you finish writing it. The other half would make it lose its meaning. But yes. That’s the point I wanted to make. No, not this one!)

God is good, yes. Shh happens, yes. That’s life. If you believe in the best of the world, its going to give you the best no matter how topsy turvy things seem at times. Its true that life is a roller coaster. You need to remain sane by remembering who you are and holding on at the crazy parts.

People may have their reasons for hurting you. And you may have been scarred by people you’ve loved and trusted, but no matter how painful they are - it never gives you any right to inflict it on others.